So before I blogged here at mental dribble.com I use to blog on my myspace page.

there are a couple blogs that I would like to bring over, so I am just going to do a little blast from the past repost of them. I will probably bring 2, maybe 3 over and I’ll spread it out over the next week or so. Here is the first… enjoy

I just feel lost sometimes.. and I don’t know what to do about it. Everything seems so difficult. On the surface and deeper everything almost seems to take super human abilities to get by. I just wonder; has it always been this way, or is it not that way at all and I am just warped? I try to stay ahead of the gang but the gang just seems like its 3 meters ahead and gaining. There are times when I curse my consciousness… I wish I had no view of reality and went through life with a smirk of ignorance and was happy for it. How does one cope with these issues? Its not like I can go sign up for one on one time with mr. 120 an hour. I can’t jump in my boat and clear my head. If you realize how you view the world causes yourself unrest can you really truly change the way you see it? Or is that like deciding you should eat liver and even though you hate it you suddenly transform your taste buds into liver loving fools? I just dont have any answers… I feel as if I am not even asking the right questions.